Empty Me

Empty me, empty night, empty empty empty. 

Like an empty chair

This and that, it upset me. Deeply. I know, the advice I’ll get is, ‘get someone to lend you a shoulder’ – true and no thanks.

"A Warm Heart"

I’m better on my own. This is the time me spending time with myself. Answering every question crossed my mind, healing every wound on my heart, clearing every bad thought which lead to hatred.

"The Beauty of on-your-own"

Sleep is the best medicine I should be taking, better than any other pain killer. 

                                                                      " A Peaceful Sleep"

Next thing you know, the sun shines brightly and little of your worries had been swept away by in your Dream World. 

 "Golden Sunshine"

~MaXiNe~              

February

Every times you do something that hurts me so badly, I’ll try to forget about you. Little by little, I stopped saying ‘I Love You’. And each time I do that, I realized how much I do.

Loving you aren't just about ….

• ·         seeing your smile – which makes me melt each time I saw one.
• ·          seeing you in your good/best appearance
• ·       seeing you as a kind person
• ·       seeing you as a talented person
• ·       you play the piano and sing my favourite songs
• ·       the joyous memories we shared
• ·       me falling in love again, each time with you
• ·      you having the most beautiful brown eyes
• ·      you are better than the others

You should know, sometimes

Loving you are about…

• ·         seeing you without your smile
• ·        seeing you in your bad appearance
• ·       seeing your palest eyes
• ·       seeing you in your bad condition
• ·       seeing you having a bad day
• ·       playing and singing my ‘I-don’t-like’ songs
• ·       remembering the bad memories we shared
• ·       accepting you just the way you are

Loving you is about loving you.

I love you just the way you are.

Weird, isn’t it? I wonder when I will stop.

New Year . .

You never knew how bad it will turn next. But whatever it will be, I’m ready. 


I don’t know what will happen, I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what she capable to do and I don’t know what and how to react when it finally come. 


Yet, I don’t know how and when suddenly, there’s  strength, unknown power inside me that I am sure prepare to see what it will do. I don’t have plan myself, but yet I can endure this. 


I don’t give a damn to a man who doesn’t have strength to resist a bitch - a low class bitch! They can call her angel or what so ever, but I am no blind. 


The fact that they are blinded by her bitching behaviour makes me realize that damn, why did I fall to someone like him. Am I blind, too stupid or what? Perhaps, someday when they finally woke up, I wish to . . . . I don’t know. 


What am I saying? Am I turning into one of them? I don’t wish to. Then, let just make it clear. I don’t know what to do next but whatever destined to happen, I will surely understand it happen because of human’s greatest weakness – sin. 

BeLieVe In YouRSelF!!

2 more paper and I'm done - no more school, no more school uniform, no more extra classes, no more annoying classmates, no more homework, less stress. but the 'no more' things makes a solitary, melancholic, and boring me. what to do? I plan to read a lot of books, watch Korean drama, watch TV 24/7, play games and planting some flowers - for real. thinking of my 'to-do-list-after-school-end', twisted my stomach. uhhhhh. ~~
it haven't end yet, yet i miss it do damn much - the 'no more'. I can't believe it ends so fast - 15 years. WOW!! 0.0




not yet la. still long way to go. but think of it. you spend almost all your life times for it and yet it feels just like yesterday. You have mixed feeling towards school. " My school, my home". at home you learn a lot of lessons and so do at school. you sleep at home so do at school. you eat at home and same goes at school. you play, jump there and there, sing that and this, say 'yes' and 'no', you cry you laugh and you even shout out loud. 


aaahhhhhh.. me being sentimental. need to stop.


anyway, i've been thinking of writing a short story. need to do a lot of research for that. wish me luck!^^


few more minutes before 6. I'm off to KFC!!Yeahhh..kna blnja..XD

Bored. Bored. Bored ~~

Just stopped my spinning head from walking in a journey with pens, alphabets and white sheets. 
Then I found a machine that has a wonderful function which I used to take this things. XD

He does look sweet but he bother me with his powerful ability that can 

makes my head and my heart races.

My monstrous monster.

What the *&^% is she doing?

And again I met these creatures. What are they doing? I am insane or they're annoying?

Pinky Bear meets Ms. Kutut, then her Bow felt from her head,

then she stole my birthday gift from Teetha.

Bad Pinky Bear..~~

 Anyway, got to go. Times up!! aiya. 

Headache, headache, here I come..~~

Ant Bites!!

Last Saturday ( Oct 8 ), I've been bitten by an ant. wow!!hebat taw.. macam yang kena allergic lagi ne. Merah2 bengkak all over my body!! Sodi!! 
sa kana gigit tym tengah hari (mulau..mcm urg gila lagi sa mingkukut) trus pg Ay, mlm makan sup nahhhhh...tambah sandi.bengkak muka sa!The mums ( aunts Porina, Nauline, Ronnie, Jelinah ) suruh sa ambil itu Daing ( sort of Sirih ), bru kc sapu d  badan.hahaha..


i cant stand it, so I asked my Mummy to fetch me to Hospital, then kana jarum d tangan bah!!XD


sa kana suruh tunggu sampai tu rashes sa hilang, but well do you expect me to wait until it gone ( yg satu badan ada? )? no way! sa kna panggil for the second times and da bg prescription then I go home. nda juga sa kana suruh pulang but he didn't asked me to stay. Haha. tp oke2 sda d. tp sa ngantuk tlmpau!!


the next morning, sa bangun, oke2 sudahlah. skali mo p ambil ubat d Farmasi, tutup bh pula. bru p d dua klinik tp gyla ramai urang!! jd sa sampai rumah tiiiidddduuuuuurrrrrrrrr... jam2 sa bangun trus pg mandi Daing. wwwwooooooowwwww!! sa trus sembuh!!mcm magic..XD 


hahahahahaha..sa gumbira sudah d..


tp kn AY klmrin yg paling menang.. kmi p d saaaaaannnnnnnnnnaaaaaa Lingkabau dekat2 Gana.. siukk uhhhh.. sejuk mcm d Kundasang!!XD 
nanti sa kc tingu gambr..XD

Blue Sky. .

I remembered how blue the sky was. And you should too. Dark came by but nothing will ever replace my memories about blue skies. I just want you to know that it will never fade...

The storm may come, the cloud may cover it, and the night will make it disappear but none would ever steal my blue sky.

I can feel the breeze and the thunders are striking from above, but the pictures of blue sky never leave.

I, maybe living in a new world where there’s hope for tomorrow’s blue sky but it can be just hope. It had been raining all the times. Sometimes with storm or thunder, but there are times I saw the sun shines and the skies turned blue. I know for sure I hoped it will last – even with drizzle. I won’t mind.

How it feels like been given a second change for walking in a green field with summer buds on it, blue sky above it and a stream passing it through? I get the picture but would I ever capture it?

Walking in the rain may sounds great but you’ll catch a cold if you keep doing it – and I hate walking in the rain. Even so, I’ll keep walking and won’t turn back until I see the blue sky. Even if I can’t see it above me at least I did try to be there – saw it from here.

Oh, I miss looking at the blue skies from my window - when I won’t have to walk in the rain, catching a cold and running to the higher places for a glimpse of a blue sky.  

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