Thursday, November 8, 2012

#06

Thursday, November 8, 2012
Have you ever stop for a while, in your busy days how is it to be someone else? Since I was a little girl, I always have a thought in my mind how is it to be someone else. Weirdly, it is not the healthy, richer person I would like to know, but the poorer, those who doesn't have any shoe to wear, those who have many stories to tell but have no one to listen to and mostly on how is it to be in a crowd of people who never understand how is it to be poor. Well, mostly, my thoughts are referring my life which I feel ashamed to admit. I may have shoe to wear but I don't have cell phone for texting. I may have friends, plenty of them to tell parts of my stories but I loss someone who understand much of my point of view. I may live in a world which are surrounded by poor people, like me, but then I am lost in the world of crowded people that sometimes I forgot how is to be grateful with what I have. 
Why is it we wanted to be someone else? Since I was little, troubles mostly I have is to be able to communicate, to make new friends. So, I learn that some actions, acts attract friends. If you are friendly, you'll get friend, you won't be alone. If you do jokes, some will prefer to spend time with you. If you are clever, some would like you to work with them in a group. If you are pretty more people will come to your life. Be popular and you have a great life. 
Here I am now, 20 years old, looking back for many years I had lived my life trying to be someone else. Why is it? I might say "an adaption towards the surrounding's flexibility." or is because I am ashamed of who am I inside, my background?  I wanted to do jokes so you would like to read my blog, I wanted to post something that attract more reader. But then I learn, it is not your content mostly that attract more reader but how popular you are among people. I've read some none sense blog about a girl telling what she do all day long and hell yes she got hundreds of readers eventhough she is just posting "Today I eat apple pie for breakfast... bla bla bla..bla bla bla.."  And yes, she is one beautiful girl. That influences too. There are some requirement you need to fulfilled to makes you able to get more reader. Mine? I have nothing. I have much thoughts in my mind. My thought don't attract other. So, I am writing for myself. BE ME, BE LONELY. I am reading my own blog because none will do. 
Am I offense? Do I feel sad? HELL NO! Do you think I don't feel glad that I am alone, lonely? This is how I live my life, and I like it. I do interfere with others. I have many friends whom I love so much! And be in a social life doesn't mean you don't feel lonely and alone. There's a time when even you are surrounded by people, you still feel alone, lonely. One great thing about me turning 20 is, I learn, be someone else doesn't mean everything will change the way you wanted it to be. I then find out, it is because I, be me, myself, I had a chance - a chance that I never planned - to be in a relationship with him. It is me being me that attract him to get to know me more. Being with him changes a lot of my perspectives towards life. "Live is your struggle of existence. Do it your way or don't do it."  



What is your first assumption regarding this picture? The man is using his wife's as a scarecrow? How about the man choose it because he feels alone, working all day long in his farm, whose wife is busy in their house which is mile away. By doing so, then he won't feel too lonely, and fell save (yala, ada isteri yang 'garang' jaga tanaman.kompom lari burung n yang pencuri pun takut tingu urang-urang yang ko buat). HAHA.  Who knows kn? It could be that way. 
My point, don't just jump into conclusion. What is custom to you might mean something else to others. Stop for a while and be empathize not by your thought but how others' feel. 

Jam 5 am suda! Bubye.. ~~

6 comments:

ell vera

Hye..i reed your blog about the story that u write and i guess i want to share some story with..hoho i hope u don't laughts couse i think my story very doesn't making sense at all..huhu..about the story "being someone else"..when im was 13-14 years old,u know(thinking want to be a beautiful girl)xoxo...im always dream that perhaps i could be a beautiful girl like my friend..i want to be a femine women,don't want too laught louder..just wanna be a beauty girl..but the realities is im just(gadis biasa)that work like boy and nobodys feel that im a perfects..but i don't want to blame anybody about my situation,couse we just plans for every things but He's decided to all we plans..i always think that(ofcouse nobody want to be my specials friend)but guess what??im already found(specials friends)hoho..so i do not blame He's..couse His created us..about the LIFE..i love being my life right even im not a rich person but im very thankful to God..i know being poor person is a difficult callenges to keep on into the life..sometimes im jealous with the person that everythings he/she want,he/she get it..can go everyway they want and many things they can do while they still have a money..but whatever the life is..just be patients,and always pray to God so He's will help us to keep on the life..amen..hehe..i guess its enough for today..i like your blogger couse u the only one i found the blog..hehe..keep on writing about anything story..i will read more..hehe..God bless us..;-)

Joanna Maxine Jm

HAA.. I experience that to - want to be and want to be with someone beautiful.. btw, thank you for reading my blog ^^ May God granted you blessing you never thought to receive.

(I always told myself that I am beautiful eventhough not in the classification of what world regard beautiful, and yet, somehow we just need to have confidence. everyone are beautiful in their own way. =) ) so pathetic, aren't I?
hey, try read the other blog that I follow. Every single blog that I followed REALLY do have a good content. =D

ell vera

Hehe..yeah all we have too do is confidence to our self..i mean(jgn la keterlaluan)..hoho..just being positive n always think that we also beautiful..****cehh..hehe...
Emm about the other blog i guess i will try to follow..he..

Btw..i want to know,what's r u right now??i mean r u still in school or something..hehe..

Joanna Maxine Jm

don't just try, do it. =D you won't be disappointed. me? still in school, but not secondary school.

Prisca Susella Welbe

First of all, thank you for following me :)

and second, i want to tell you 'You're beautiful' . someone dear to me posted on my blog saying about the differences between being beautiful and pretty. That was two different thing that we should know.

HELL YEAH ! i was in your shoe before and even now i am still trying to get that confidence about beauty . Well, I know God have done His best and very best to made me ME. And that - same goes to you ! But, i can't deny that i always want to be more and more and more beautiful.

SO, let just be ourself.

And i must admit this... *sya minat boipren kau* *Jangan marah* hehe. Btw, I won't mess with ur relationship gia :) Ngam ba kamu dua. kiutt. So, keep it that way aah.

Glad to know u .

LOVE, HUGS, KISSES.
Cyeka.

Joanna Maxine Jm

oh my! u knew mia boipren? miahahaha. nevermind. saya indada marah juga. tida juga salah minat urang. hehe

btw, thank u for following back! =) REALLY! =)
thanks for stopping by.
thank u again for the feedback. =)
let's be friend.

REALLY glad to know u.

XOXO,
Maxine <3

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